For the past two months, I've had a draft entitled "Update: Will." It's set to be my final farewell to this blog, but at the same time, I'm too scared to start writing it. I don't know if I'd regret it or not. And so it sits, empty, to be posted one day, be it in two months or two years.
First of all: no, I don't want to abandon this site. But there will be a lot less going on here. This was a labor of love since I was 12. I'm 16 now, and I don't know how to feel about leaving the old stomping grounds behind.
I will say that my attention has focused a lot on the other blog, Unfunny Guy. Allow me to explain a bit.
For the first time, I felt like people actually cared about what I had to say. Suddenly, I had legitimate status. I wasn't forcing myself up a social ladder (and failing)- I was actually a part of it. People have given me nice comments. People have referenced the stuff I've written. And, most importantly, I made an awesome friend along the way who, get this, I actually inspired to start writing in the first place. And now he's even more successful than me!
I never had any of those experiences here. Don't get me wrong, I've gotten to work with a lot of awesome people (and I do love all of you guys who stick around), but I always felt like I was intruding. Now, it feels like I'm part of a community that appreciates the effort I put into what I type. I've even expanded into new frontiers with a responsive audience that actually communicates with me (to an extent, of course.) Plus, I'm actually working on a legitimate collaborative piece (and it was at the other person's urging, holy crap)!
Another issue is that I've been falling a bit out of video games. Don't get me wrong, I love them to death still, but I haven't even touched my 3DS in a month. Meanwhile, I haven't even thought about getting the Nintendo Switch with my insane workload. Without experiencing a game in a long time, what's the point in writing about them? The other blog, on the other hand, is something I actually enjoy operating, and it actually feels kind of enriching for what I want to do in the future- comedy writing. By analyzing humor, I'm working on deciphering the craft while also refining my own voice and writing prowess. I haven't been so enthusiastic about my work since 2013.
Alright, so that's all been stated, but when am I going to return this blog to some level of its former not-really-glory? I don't know, but I feel bad just killing it off. I want to do more interviews, though I don't know how likely they're going to work out in the future or when they're going up. At the very least, I want to post something every once in a while. My big issue is just motivating myself. I don't know if it's even worth it anymore or if it's healthiest that I just move on.
Once again, I don't want to leave this place. I just don't. It's just a matter of finding time, which unfortunately has been a bit of an issue. Thanks for being a reader; it means a lot. Hopefully we can fire this thing up again.